
So, right now I'm avoiding stuff that I "should" be doing and writing this. Is it just me, or does everyone have a hard time "allowing" themselves time to do nothing? I manage to put myself on a guilt trip if I sit for more than 10 minutes, or read something other than for a lesson for more than 15 minutes. It kind of ticks me off sometimes. I mean really. I know there are always things to do, and there always will be (I'm not exactly Suzie Homemaker when it comes to dust bunnies) but shouldn't there be a time when you can relax and not have to deal with the guilt? I think that's one of the reasons that I like to go to the cabin. I can read or sleep or listen to audio books without feeling guilt that I "should" be doing something- or ten somethings- else. And that's just on the ride up! Once we get there I can choose what to do or not to do. It's really lovely up there no matter what time of year and because it's "rustic" and I don't have massive expectations for myself, it's ok for me to read, or paint or just plain ole nap. Chuck on the other hand thrives on doing "stuff" whilst up there. He plans from the time we leave the cabin drive what he will be doing on our next visit. He putters, builds, cuts, clears, and keeps himself busy with the occasional token nap thrown in out of sheer exhaustion.
Anyway, we are headed up there this Thursday for several days. I took my last two personal leave days and we'll go up to celebrate our 15th wedding anniversary. Yes. It's hard to believe it's been 15 years. But all I need do is look at a wedding photo, the size of the kids, not to mention the "fro" of my hair, and it all becomes very real.
This week is the last "full" week of school. And I'm pretty sure I have short term mentality even worse than the students (well, those that aren't seniors. The seniors are ridiculous). When we get back from the cabin I'll give finals for two days and then Thurs. and Friday are the wrap up. From there it will be time to wipe all the computers clean. I didn't do it last year and there are a lot of files that need to be copied, removed, etc. and I'll need to load the new version of Photoshop to all the computers. That will take a pretty good chunk of time right there. Ok, it's making me tired thinking about all this. I better go have a little lie down (now, if I can just do that and not have a massive guilt attack).....
3 comments:
Did you get your booking fee back? I don't know how I'll manage this weekend without being able to call you. I know, I'll call grandma. I've been meaning to do that for a while now.
I agree with the guilt trip. I have a hard time sitting down to watch a movie without something to work on. Maybe it's a personal problem. Have fun in Italy.
I know the guilt thing, as well. It ticks me off, too! I've heard it's a woman thing??? Enjoy Italy...I expect there will be some great photos and stories that follow :)
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