Monday, October 24, 2011

Just seems WRONG.

Last Friday would have been mom's 82nd birthday.

I got several auto-generated email reminders to wish her a happy birthday.
I didn't say anything to anyone because...
well for a lot of reasons.
It would appear from all the emotional episodes I've been experiencing lately
that holding everything inside isn't doing me a whole lot of good.

So, I'm acknowledging ...

Mom, I miss you.
I hate that you're gone.
I can't seem to get myself together.

I wish you were here.

Not sure how to proceed.

4 comments:

Lost Woman said...

Oh yeah...I'm with you on this.

I didn't say anything to anyone as well. Just another trigger to cry... but you are right, the crying needs to come out.

Not sure if I'll ever feel right or together without her here.

Wish I had a bit more of her positive outlook just now.

michandler said...

Must have been those pesky American Greetings that remind you of someone's birthday. I got two in my e-mail too. It was rather surreal I have to say. It's moments like that which bring it all home that she really is gone.

Momma Salt said...

The first mother's day after my mom passed away, I volunteered to get a card for my husband's mom. I stood in WalMart browsing the mother's day cards and next thing you know I am just sobbing out loud. Finally had to leave and he had to get his own card.

I still cry at unexpected times--and it has been nine years.

Diann THE Chief Mommio said...

Poor thing, I am sending a virtual hug. Cherish all the wonderful memories you have of her, she did a great job with you!